Today, I am a 26-year-old girl and I live a life I used to only dream about: a small cozy little apartment, a little four-legged friend, and a boyfriend, who is a keeper. Together, we strive to better ourselves and take on the highest mountain tops of Slovenia. Those smallest little pieces of Earth, where we find our happiness again and again, escaping from our 8-hour per day jobs. All these wonderful days, passing too quickly, became part of my lifestyle and pushed my past into a distant memory. A memory that doesn’t seem to be a part of my life, but just another story. It feels like I haven’t written my book, but only read it. But it all happened to me. Nine years of anorexia has left many negative emotions and feelings inside of me, and I would never want this to happen to any child, ever. But I still try to look at this experience with a positive attitude, because, no matter how you spin it, it made me into the person I am today. I believe and hope to help many others, just because of this experience. Since I best express myself by writing things on a piece of paper, I found the best way to tell my story is by writing a book.
Want to know how anorexia feels like?
It is not a phase, a diet, a trend, or a choice. It is a disorder. One which people like me, who have struggled with anorexia, hate. We are not okay and we don’t know how to show the world otherwise. People with anorexia are dying literally every day. If you want to defeat anorexia, you have to understand it, just like all the other “demons”. How to better understand it than to listen to someone who has faced it? I initially wrote this book to clear my mind, share my experiences, and express my emotions. However, readers convinced me that I’ve written an amazing book that can help people understand anorexia, which is the first step towards a better future, and that’s why I’ll try to share it with as many as possible.
Overview of the book
This is my story. A story of nine long years in a constant state of guilt and hate. Within this story are gathered all the thoughts that were stuck in my head every hour of every day. I felt it necessary to go out and exercise, even though I knew I would faint as a result. Those were nine years of lies. I told myself that the skinner I’d be, the happier I’d become. Nine years until I finally had my breakthrough, when I realized what nonsense all this truly is.Read more